Only a couple of weeks ago, I gave in to my frustration and let it get the better of me. Mom had wanted the potatoes and onions planted and she told us to go out and finish digging the places where they would be planted. At first, I was hopping ready to go out there and do what needed to be done. Eric was too, and I was encouraged by that. But when I saw my sister's bad attitude about being out there in the hot sun instead of in the cool house, I started noticing how much more of the row I had to do, and that I would have to till it again. I noticed that Jocelyn was almost done with hers and that I would be the last one out there. All those discouraging, disruptive thoughts that were in my head.
When Jocelyn went in to do something after her trench for the potatoes was done, Amanda took Caleb in the house and then Eric wanted a drink of water. I was the only one out there, and I thought Jocelyn had gone in to stay. Maybe I thought Amanda had too because she had planted some onions. Nevertheless, I was mad. I had tried to work as fast as I could, and then I had to till it again. The sun was eating down on my back, and head. I was hot, sweaty, and angry at having to be out there with no one. I was frustrated at myself for not working faster.
I fell into the temptation of sin. I gave in to my sinful attitude. Sometimes the devil has a way of doing that to me. Sometimes it is my own bad habits of a bad attitude. I have a good attitude and want to help, but then I see everything that everyone else is doing. Then I am mad and discouraged. Well, needless to say, I was mean to everyone after that. Eric came out and was trying to yell over the tiller. I could hear him saying something, but was trying not to hear him. Finally, I blew. I was so nasty that Mom came out and ordered me to get in the house and take a shower.
I went to my room, and sat on my bed and cried. I knew I shouldn't have acted that way. Why had I not just kept my good attitude and not given in to my selfishness? I could have been the sweetest, most kind person in the world, but no. I had to be nasty and mean. What would I have thought if Jocelyn or Amanda would have acted that way? Probably, "Man, they sure do make a big deal out of nothing." I was making a big deal out of nothing.
The Lord said In Luke 22:40 not to give in to temptation, but to pray -
Luke 22:40
"And when he was at the place, he said unto them, Pray that ye enter not into temptation."
I should have prayed before I went out there for the Lord to help me not to get frustrated or angry, but to be kind, loving, soft in answers, and have a cheerful countenance. So, the next time you are planning to do something, make sure you take the time to pray about it before you start your task. It will make a world of difference in your attitude. :)
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Dear Lady Rachel,
This psot really speaks to me, because I am constantly making a big deal out of nothing! I blow up at the tiniest details, and my attitude is exactly what you described. Then, I do exactly what you said that you did, sit on my bed and cry. I ask myself the same question as to why I can't be good, and kind, and nice, and loving.
Thank you for the post, and hopefully, I will start to look to the Lord when we see a danger zone coming.
Have a very bright, very cheerful day!
Miss Eyebright
Dear Rachel,
we all have our areas of weakness....and the devil loves to try to get us down.......You are so right in that we all must pray before, and while we are doing things. The Bible says to pray without ceasing....I appreciate your post.
Ah... how easily we allow our feelings to rule us. I have to daily remind myself to let the peace of God reign in my heart instead of the disruption of my own ideas.
It's not easy, but there are far less regrets afterwards!
This post really has chalenged me to pray before I start some thing that I know can make me cross. I do the same thing frequently. But I don't end up crying, I just get madder and more stuborn and then it completly ruins my day.
Thank you
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